not so private and confidental!

harini 5.11.10,
akhirnya aku bersedia nak ceritakan semuanya sekali pada malam ni...yes semuanya.aku harap lepas ni hati aku xberat and tak lagi raser sakit.
First of all,aku nak bgtau yg aku happy gile dapat tau yg FR ade fb...lepas da brape lame cari die and lepas brape lame aku tggu org bercerite pasal die and lepas berapa lama aku dok tggu org ungkit or cakap 'aku dgr die ni die itu' and lepas bape lame jugak aku tny 'die mane a skrg?die buat ape?'
thats why aku happy n sensitive tak tentu pasal bile dapat tau die ade fb sampai aku tebal kan muka walaupun org xbole nampak,aku cakap 'glad to know that u are here'
muka tatau malu kan?
Then lepas msg utk bbrape kali,for the first time aku dapat im dr die,and die tny,kenape x im je?aku reply,sbb takut tutt xreply,and he said,kenape pulak xreply...seriously aku tatau ape da jadi kat aku sampai tgn aku da sejuk and siap shaking lagi..plus time tu result kuar,aku bgtau die dulu dr mummy yg aku pass exam?what??dunia da tbalik ke?okay yg tu just happen,aku excited,and that time pukul 430 pagi.mummy dah tido.die support aku suruh check and bile dah lulus aku just share,and memandangkan die je yg ade time tu.hari yg sama aku call college,nak tny pasal graduation day.aku xdpt grad sbb name da kene reject.mlm td dok happy2,hr ni tros xde mood and skali lg aku text die ngan selamba ny bgtau aku xleh grad.die support lg..

3 4 kali im ngan die raser okay,tp ade 1 hr ni raser cam aku bukan im ngan die wpun aku tau die tu mcm mane.suddenly aku raser 'sah,die xsuka aku im die,die rase mnyampah ke?die xsuke aku im die?die xsuke aku?die bnci ke?' semua tu serentak dlm 1 masa...sampai 1 hari aku bace 'somebody watching me,beyond the limit' since that aku dah xpenah lg bkak2 page die,stalker??so??biala....yes aku stalk die.
Now tak lagi and aku raser aku patut stop,aku perlu and mesti stop..aku kene lupakan die wpun susah.aku kene lupekan die.aku kene lupekan die.aku kene lupekan die..aku bgtau bff aku 'i think im falling in love again' dorg cam xcaye sbb da brape lame aku xtbkak hati utk sape2...but now officially aku nak tarik balik kata2 aku...arghhhh kenape aku raser perit tekak?kenape aku raser sedih n air mata dah melelehhhh..s@&%!!!!

Kalau ade chance aku just nak duduk,nak cakap thanks.sorry.aku tak sempat nak cakap sume tu dulu.die org 1st yg aku blaja utk suke and cinta tp its too late sbb aku xhiraukan die and luangkan masa utk softball lebih dr dieee....

Now i realised that aku dah terlambat.aku takkan menyesal.ni semua pengalaman hidup.this the best story among the best.tp dont worry people.its over now,im in WIP in forgetting and to let him go.just in case if u read this,just want u to know than i miss u so much and thank you for everything.